Thursday, February 26, 2004

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIVALI DEAR! hehe... there is definitely the presence of an irrepressible feeling... not concerning the release of the O level results, but rather something else... something that i've been trying to get past my mind... i just feel un-required at times... sigh. more excitingly, come tomorrow, is the anticipation of seeing my old school building, of seeing the people, the teachers, once more... i'm sure many out there would be feeling the same sense of anticipation as me... it's just that it's really hard for me to let go of the culture i've been living and breathing with for ten years now... saying goodbye was never easy... though the time had came and gone last year, during graduation day, there is still a stab of pain in my heart when i realise that i've finally stepped out of the "ij family"... seeing shimin yesterday at p.s was a treat for me... that dear girl made me feel ij-ish all over again... not to forget the call i got from natasha... my mind flashing recollections of the time that we had spent together... gosh, i feel like crying... been rather emotional this week, i hope you people will understand... things i can look forward to tmr 1) meeting my ex-classmates/schoolmates all over again 2) meeting my ex-banders... 3) meeting my wonderful teachers 4) the hugs-and-smiles exchange *once an ij girl, always an ij girl... take a listen to this: Try by Nelly Furtado All I know Is everything is not as it's sold but the more I grow the less I know And I have lived so many lives Though I'm not old And the more I see, the less I grow The fewer the seeds the more I sow Then I see you standing there Wanting more from me And all I can do is try Then I see you standing there Wanting more from me And all I can do is try I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness And all the real people are really not real at all The more I learn the more I cry As I say goodbye to the way of life I thought I had designed for me Then I see you standing there Wanting more from me And all I can do is try Then I see you standing there I'm all I'll ever be But all I can do is try Try All of the moments that already passed We'll try to go back and make them last All of the things we want each other to be We never will be And that's wonderful, and that's life And that's you, baby This is me, baby And we are, we are, we are, we are Free In our love We are free in our love

|soph`x|
2/26/2004 08:51:00 PM