Sunday, November 07, 2004


woke up after a bad dream. don't know if it's a premonition or what... in the dream, i woke up at 10am, to realise that the GP A level paper started at 7.40am... and that i totally missed the paper... gosh. why would i dream of such a thing? now what would that be supposed to mean? felt dizzy for some time after that... =( but i'm a-ok now. had lunch at coca restaurant at novena square after mass today... steamboat style. not bad. but i am very full now... =p hey, i'm just trying to help alrights? there's so much for me to think about now, especially now; pw, cca, homework, subjects, what i can do to make my life worthwhile... i don't want to be forced into anything or make a promise which i am unable to keep. which i haven't so far. so if you think i have done so, you got it all wrong, i never gave a 'yes'... maybe i've led you on, making you think that i have agreed to that as i offered to go back, but girl, you may have gotten it wrong... i have not decided yet. very much undecided. it's so difficult... give me an extra 24 hours while the rest of the world sleeps. now that might allow me to fulfil all that i want to do or trying to do... i know i have to decide soon, but i need to sort out my own stuffs, my own messy mind... so don't expect me to be doing what you want to do just because i'll be around. even if i can't play, at least i'm offering my help to you guys... and if you don't want it, then it's very much fine with me. i make a very good audience... having a good and supportive audience is also very important to boost the performers' morale don't you think? and then that will free up more time for myself and what i want to do... but having typed that, now i feel selfish... but at the same time... =X time is not on my side... very =X-ed... and i've got only myself to thank... i'm sinking deeper and deeper...

|soph`x|
11/07/2004 05:12:00 PM